Hi fellow readers who managed to dropped by after months of me to not even type "blogger.com" once i opened a new window. basically, this post may be quite emotional yet for u readers. SO bare with it ya?
The last time I posted something in this blog of mine was like before February. Those were the times when lots of memorable experience came by me one after the other. From getting through my Olvls, to getting a job in AKLTG, to the Clique outing and then to orientation. I was reading through all the stories ive typed. All the complains Ive listed & all the comments that Ive made as I didnt know that God is watching. I cant help it but to shed tears. Tears of joy, regret and hope. I realised that I am really fortunate to be where I am right now. I tried to escape from all the problems I have. All the misunderstandings that never fail to appear, every month. But, in fact, I realised that all I was doing was actually running behind that closed doors. I was too myopic to even notice how much I can grow, develop, learn and appreciate life if I were to take action to open that closed doors and step into a a brand new world. A world of possibilities.
Why must we run away from troubles when they are there to make us stronger?
Why cant we bare the challenge that is ahead for us when it is actually there to make us realise our true potential.
How can we not know that the difficulties that we face are never too burdensome for us to handle?
What can we do now?
What can we say to the younger generations out there who gave up their hope just because they feel that people like us, are simply no better than who they are. face challenges, Gave up!
I know this may not make any sense for some of u readers, but truly, as i stepped into a journey which I call Junior College, it made me discover who I truly am. Looking through at all those pictures from my previous posts really touched me. For every steps that I take, I am learning something new. Something that is close to me. Something that I call, inner strength.
Striving hard for Olvls wasn't an easy thing to do.
Getting a place in Adam Khoo Learning Technologies as a camp instructor isnt an opportunity thats easy to come by.
Leaving AKLTG for studies isnt something I am able to get through off easily.
Separating from my clique to pursue our own personal goals and dream was just unbearable. To see all of us taking different route and letting go of each other hands, did nothing more other than to shed tears because we wished that we can repeat the whole series of good memories all over again.
Now, in Meridian JC, ive realised that it is not a choice to be regretted. Its a choice that needs to be challenged. Its life.
Oh Allah, give me the inner strength for which I need for the fact that I am only an ordinary mankind from which you have created. From you I seek forgiveness. and from you I seek direction.
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